Happy Update
I’ve been doing much better lately ^_^ Recently the only thing driving me crazy was school, but that always happens. Had some very rough times, but somehow managed to get all As. My friends rule, I am very glad to have them in my life. The combination of support from others and me being willing to change my thinking has really helped. I’ve always known it’s in my own power to control how I’m feeling, it was just always so hard to control it. The need for me to be in control of my life was obvious though, and I went ahead and actually listened to that.
I feel much more calm lately, trying to take things day by day. I’m sure the usual school stress will come back in January, but for now I’m just trying to enjoy my vacation. One thing I’ve actually been good at this month is getting out of the house. I’m always such a hermit. I am still perfectly content staying home, but what this usually means is I’m glued to the computer. I’m pretty much online non-stop and I wanted to get away from that a bit. I’m definitely not a naturally social person, but I think I’ve had pretty vast improvements over the past year.
I’ve been feeling less anxious about the future and am actually looking forward to it. It’s a strange, unfamiliar place where I am right now. I felt pretty miserable for far too long. I’d always let myself think I felt okay, but I realize I really didn’t. I feel happy and content inside now; it feels peaceful. I’m sure maintaining this feeling will take some work, but I’m up for the task.
Whoever is out there reading this, I hope you are having nice holidays whether you’re alone, or with others. As my friend says, BIG love.